Of course I love him … For as long as I can remember, he has been my reason to live!
Now I am climbing up with him on a mountain.
I am in His temple, in the forest of life. He is my priest in this temple of nature. He is near me, but I am climbing alone. Me with my thoughts and feelings.
He was walking behind me, in silence. I had forgotten about him. I hadn’t felt him near me for a long time. He had lost his way somewhere … among his roads, among his women, among the forests of his emotions…
I had long forgotten that I was not alone. I was too busy to climb, to resist, to catch my breath and the power to move on… to be able to resist…
I was a prisoner of the effort to be chosen, to be loved and to be cherished! I was locked in a scenario of life, in which I was giving without receiving. Like a little girl who never succeeded in fulfilling her father. Like a little girl who had never experienced the full appreciation of her father. Of her god. I only knew how to survive, without taking me from there. Just to survive without blooming. Just to serve: I serve, so I am!
….At one point I stopped. I was higher than him, by only a few centimeters on that slope.
Suddenly, without saying anything, He blew towards me. He blew life towards me! His breath came into my soul. I felt it in every fiber of my being. I had forgotten about him and that breath brought him back into my soul!
I returned in amazement and I saw him in all His Beauty. He was there. Perfect. Centered, Masculine. Complete.
We met our eyes in another dimension. I recognized him and then I knew I reached Home. Into my soul.
I then returned and continued climbing. Without a word…
Since that breath my life has changed. I have entered a new stage of life.
The circle has closed.
His presence, his gaze transported me to another dimension!
I understood that even though I was not aware, no man in my life had ever chosen me, me entirely!
It does not matter that there were choices regarding family obligations, such as the role of father, or career, or social roles … or if there were other sisters-women in the forefront of their existence.
There have always been another or something else, more important than me.
And suddenly, I understood. At the end of His eyes that accompanied me along my way, I found autonomy!
Opportunity to make new choices!
The experiential feeling of my own worth!
Life released from expectations from Him!
The next day I danced with happiness, waiting for my beloved to find me, to learn to dance together the dance of freedom, in fulfilled love!
The man represents the masculine energy in manifestation.
For every man I loved, I now offer homage to my feminine soul and energy by honoring his existence!
Today I want to express my gratitude for all the men who accompanied me on the path of life:
I bow before you, today, wonderful men of my life, by honoring your energy: thank you to the athletes I adored, from Dacians to Vikings, from those at the tropics to those from the land of the cedars, I bow before that champion athlete who gave me the most precious gift of my life, I bow before you my brave king, my unknown hero, I put my wings together in a prayer before the poets who wrote me poems, the painters who painted me, the sculptors who kept my knees in their palms, the minstrels who wrote to me and sang of love, to the healers with whom I loved people.
I honored now the priests of the world to whom my heart and body were the altar where they put their offering of love, and I bow my soul to the magicians with whom I lived the alchemical mysteries of sacred love!
You have all joined me towards me, towards home!
With you I have learnt to become a strong healer-woman!
But I don’t want to be a strong woman anymore! I leave that power to you!
I have arrived now at my destination. In my temple.
I’m ready to meet my beloved. With him I will learn to become a happy woman and live a goddess life on the earth in his beautiful earth temple!
So come my love!
Rumi songs will be your compass!
I am waiting dearly for you!
